Today I've learned that I have a pretty short attention span. For example, I was making a cup of tea a few hours ago, and just because my mind was preoccupied about thinking of other things, I nearly put the wet teabag in the fridge instead of the bin.
And then, again, when I was stirring my tea, it all splashed out of the cup. Then as I went to clean it up, the spoon fell in the sink instead of in the drying tub/basket/thing (Whatever the fuck it's called).
All because I was thinking of you.
I'm supposed to be taking a nap right now because I might not stay up late enough to watch the whole film with you tonight, but I just couldn't fall asleep. I have Stellar stuck in my head, and I also wanted to practice 'Why - Secondhand Serenade', and then after my sister was sent to bed about fifteen minutes ago, all I wanted to do was write.
It's a good thing, writing, and I haven't been able to do it properly in a while. I didn't think I was able to, because whenever I speak to you or write to you (or about you), my sentences get all jumbled up and I start making up words just to fill in the spaces where my mind has gone blank. I know that we're supposed to be slowing down, but I can't help thinking about you, and it's hard not to backtrack when we've already been running at full speed - It's kind of hard to find your way back when you've already gone so far that you don't know where you came from.
But I really like you, and that's all that matters as long as we're trying.
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