I'm not sure what to write in this post, but I am going to attempt to write something worth reading. The last few weeks have been just talking to Leigh and playing Modern Warfare 3. I can't wait for her to have MW3 because then that's something we can do together and perhaps feel closer to one another through the playing of this video game.

It seems that all I hope for is to be closer to Leigh. Either directly or indirectly. I handed out resumes to find a job so that I could have money to find Leigh and I a place to live. I go to the gym so that I can stay fit for Leigh. It seems I do most, if not everything for her. She means a lot to me and I want to do everything in my power to make our lives perfect.

Tomorrow I think I'm going to call the places I handed in resumes at. As a follow-up. Then maybe I can figure out whether I have a job or not. I really hope I do, because if I don't, I think I'll get mildly depressed and end up feeling like the failure I usually feel like. Leigh can usually make me feel better if I'm in a bad mood, so I'm not too worried... I like this feeling of happiness though. I like not being depressed and lonely anymore, so I'd rather not feel like that at all anymore. It may seem pathetic to get upset over it, but I suppose I have this low self-esteem somewhere inside of me and sometimes it comes out. Oh well, I'll continue to try to get over it.

Recently, I've been thinking about Loren a lot. Leigh reminds me a lot of her and whenever I see a certain shade of a color on a Facebook picture, I think of her. Maybe I'll talk about what happened more in another post.

Well, this is my blog post. I hope your enjoyed reading it.